if you have a power to travel through time and change something,what will u change??

if you have a power to travel through time and change something,what will u change??

17.09.09, 4.30am...
its time to sahur...
nadzuan is in d kitchen,altering my cooking i prepared last night...
its too salty..hahaha what can i say...
its my cooking and altering my cooking is part of his routine...

watching terminator or mistakenly pronounced as termometor last night while waiting 4 the time to eat...
damn it...
its a goddamn interesting movie though...
been 3weeks spending my times watching it...
and discerning the part when d kyle reese go back through time to protect sarah conner,
i kinda thinking..and berangan again...
a question appears in my head...
'IF I HAVE THE POWER TO TRAVEL THROUGH TIME,WHAT WILL I CHANGE IN D PAST??"

i could only think of 1 thing to be done...
to submissively follow all my parents words without any objection..

i can still remember my old myself when i was around 10years old..
at dat time,people call me eddie...
he was a lil child who was afraid of every1...especially to the teachers,sisters,bros and parents...
he obeyed all their words without even thinking of what was he told to be done...
he had no gut to talk to a girl...neither nak mengorat ke ape...
he never ever audacious to ponteng semayang...
when it came to the God's name...even just heard of His name,he would became afraid...
to do samting wrong in sense of agama,he did not even thinking of it..
to lie to the parents,friends and every1..."it was something really really really bad to be done",he tot...
to ponteng solat or even when terlepas solat accidentally ,he will became totally anxious...
in study,he had a great mind...easy to remmber and to understand...
in friendship,he was a joker...to create a smile on their friends' face was his hobby...

thanks to my parents,it was their precept constructed the old me...the 'eddie' with a humble attitude...
i dun know,when it started...
when eddie changes to wadie...
the me i have today...
his behaviour is totally up side down comparing to the old 1...

the 1 who are not afraid of every1...even to the teachers,sisters,bros and parents..even sometimes,he tot that pounder is the best solution of every dispute...
he disobeys all their words and too lazy to think of what being told...n he used to say,"biarlah dulu...nnt la buat" but d fact is,he will never do it...
to talk to a girl???erk...u know it better...
agama??ouwh wish i could be better...never take serious of what should be done to be a good servant to the God...and to disobey his obigation, its like nothing...
to lie to d parents,he has a wrong idea.."its ok to lie,if d reality is too bad to be heard by em...in order to ensure that they wont worry.."im not sure its right...but always,d 1st word come from my mouth when talking to em,is a lie...i dun know what is wrong wif me...
to ponteng solat especially suboh..its like,takpe la...like setting d alarm to wake up,its set to 8am..see,suboh is never in his plan...
in study,he is d stupidest student in class,in group 10...always being belittle his friend..."tak yah tanye die,die tak taw ape2 pon"i olredy get used to it...
in friendship,he is a hypocrite...not every1 around him is established as his friend...and he never cares to those...and most of time, himself come 1st than his friend...

damn it...duk tulis2...baru ku sedar,teruk jugak aku ni..
i neva realize that im this bad...
i always want to change...
but ive less spirit...too easy to be influenced....
my azam every year is only 1...n its d same 4 every year...
TO CHANGE...TO BE BETTER PERSON...
but i neva succeed..im still me...
d same bad ass as yesterday...
wish i could be a better person...
not to satisfy others,but me myself...
at lis,be like the old eddie long time ago...
i just dont want to be like this forever