SCRIPT OF MY LIFE

once upon a time,

when i was a lil child,around 10years old...

small n cute boy...

i nurtured a squirrel...

i named it as romeo..

it was damn cute lil punk dat used to hang on my shoulder when i was eating...

and slept on my stomach while i was sleeping...

i loved it so much...

i started to nurture it when i was on my way home from school...

it was suddenly fall from a tree...

pity...wat a poor lil animal..

i took it home n told my mother dat i wanted to take care of it..

my sister nyampuk,"gille mung..nok wat natang mende ngn menatang tuh..bukang buleh makang pon...perabeh berah jer"...

ngan slamber,aku jawab...."natang nih dok makang berah pong...dok soh sibok ah...kekgi mung gok duk ngenak ke natang nih..."

my sis terdiam....

however it was too bad since my mother didnot allow me to do so...

thus i nurtured it secretly...

after few weeks,my father knew bout romeo...

he asked me to throw it away..

i resisted...

i cried out loud to gain his sympathy but failed...

he still wanted to get rid of it...

then i took romeo n ran towards sawah padi n lepak kat bendang dengan romeo...

aku mogok...tanak balik...

until 7.30pm,it was getting dark n yet i still didnot come home...

my father searched for me n found me there...

then he allowed me to take care of romeo since i was too obsessed with it...

i was damn happy...

as i loved romeo more than anything i had at dat tyme...

2months later,

romeo died...

in a car accident...

but he didnot drive...

tak sampai pon nk pijak pedal...

even dun think he knew wat pedal is..

a car contravened it...

damn,i was damn sad...

felt like my world had turned around...

....................................the end....................................

however...

i can barely remember anything bout romeo today...

why???

because d love for romeo is not strong enuf to help me reminiscing all those memories i had with it...

not just towards a pet...

even towards a human...

gf,bf or friend...

we tot we love em damn much that we cant live without em...

but later,wen we face d situation...

when we are alone without em...

we will notice that d feeling has fade away in time...

like an ash been blew by d wind...

but love towards God,its eternal...

as we will never lose Him...

He will always on our side...

when we sad,happy...

even when we forget about Him...

why would we insist for a love from a human...

like us...

who will die...who will hurt us...who will leaves us???

we come to this world,alone by ourselves from our mom's womb...

n later,we will leave d world also by our own in a small and narrow tomb...

lonely...

ask urself,wheres in hell ur bf???ur gf???

who used to say,"kite akan sehidup semati"

now u r dead but why is not he around????

all we have is Him...only Him...

on our side...

looking at us...

faithfully accompanies us to face wat will come onwards...

ur name as sweet as u are...

for time we meet at pleer.ru,

i fall in love with u...

felt like i'd found my true love...

d 1 ive been searching for a long time...

u r beautiful...

looking n touching u for a long time will never be boring...

u r sweet...

u always der when im alone...

craving for sam1 to be on my side...

to admit my existence..

u r complicated,

making me eager to get to know u even better...

im not selfish in spending hour with u...

even though im bz,ill find time n space for u...

u r d 1 dear...d one for me...

just now,

i was having dinner at devis..

then lepaking at galelio..

alone...

surrounded by russian...

felt like living in a jungle...

surrounded by trees...

they were der,opposite of me...

but i neva understand n know wat they were talking...

loneliness...

it was killing me...

then i found dat u were der...

on my right...

smiling...

u let me touch u...

u let me talk to u...

i felt no more boredom...

calm n happiness...

with u on my side...

i dun need anyone for me...

its enough having u...

im happy...

much happy...

thans dear...

for all those things u did to me...

for all those memories u help me to keep...

for making me happy...

i love u....

could not sleep for d whole nyte...kept thinking on buying a DSLR...

D90,D5000 or EOS500D...

tit tot,tit tot....

i conclude,gonna have nikon D5000...

well,looking at d specs of each type,

D90 is d best...

however d price is damn great too....

41000ruble....almost rm4500..

gilo den..mampoih kene ketuk ngn my daddy...

while D5000 is just around 27000ruble...+-rm3000..

n for dat canon,its olredy out of list as i much prefer nikon...

bang2...

ders 1time while i was sleeping,got a dream...

cant recall hows d dream played,

but D90 keep playing in my head..

maybe dats a sign from d God..

but i much prefer it to be mainan iblis...nafsu...

sbb hargenye tak patut....

act,i can afford to buy it...but if i do so,then no more trip to UK n France for dis winter...

cant let it happen though...

herm i dun know when did i start collecting spirit n interest in dis shit camera rasaksa...

maybe it is cos of influence by my frens...

sbb ramai nk mampos kot bela rasaksa nih...

however d main reason is i dun wanna repeat d same mistake i'd done in my past...

while i was in mckk...

ders so much memories took place,which i wish dat i was taking a picture of em...

but too bad,i had no camera dat tyme...

thus,all those memories can only be remmbered..cant be shown in a picture..

which mean its only for me,no one else could see it...

damn!!

wateva....

im gonna buy it...

no matter wat..hahaha