if i die tonight

IF I DIE TONIGHT by too phat...

Verse 2
"Well if I die tonight
I wonder, Where I'll be tomorrow
Nobody cry please, Push away the sorrow
'Cause I ain't been,

The best of men,The best of friends

The best of mom, And daddy's last son
The best of anything, Tell Joe here's a last one
If I die tonight
Would I be forgiven, By all the people
I been slackin' with, When I was livin'?
Those who I hurt their hearts, Took advantage of
And even lied to, Hug you one last time
For forgiveness, Yeah I would like to
If I die tonight
Would you feel the loss?
Tomorrow would you dial My number by accident
Then suddenly... pause?
If I die tonight
I wonder who would get,To keep my caps and shoes
Jerseys, even my little Stuffed crocodile Coco too
Get my cell phone, Message everyone from A to Z
Tell 'em this ain't Malique, He passed away last night
And pray he rest in peace
If I die tonight
Would you think of my room, When you see blue
Wanted to clean it up this morning, But then I never knew
If I die tonight
What would happen to Tim, How long would it take
Before she kissed another man?... God damn...
At fast food joints, Would she still order
The same combo meal for two? Things I wish I knew... "

termenung sendirian brought me to d last 5yers,

when i was in form3,been a naughty-dude,

joined hip-hop and breakdanced...

then teringat kat this beautiful song by too phat..

'if i die tonight'

scrutinize every single lines of d lyric buat aku terfikir,

if i die tonight,what will happen???

am i really such important person to my friends and family like they used to be for me???

or am i just like sampah,

which they dun even give a damn if i ever exist???

will hafiz aizat hamiat writes on his facebook,"wahai sahabat,dimanakah engkau" like he did due to absence of his fren few days ago???

will mohd azim abdul hamid go back to malaysia from france to visit my grave??

will muaz bin shahriman teruna termenung reminiscing d time spent wif me??

will nuyerq and ainadelia cry for my death???

i wonder....

in d class,

will my groupmates remember me??

when there is no-1 to be laughing at during ruski-class,

when there is no-1 to borrow their note book to be copied,

when there is no-1 come to borrow their lecture note,

when there is no-1 talk about bisnes and money,

i wonder....

back to malaysia,

will my family cry for me???

will my father realizes that he ever had a son named ainuddinwahid...

will my mother remember my face when she creases my old clothes,

will she weeps while cooking my favourite ayam masak merah,

or they will just act like theres nothing happen

since ive been far away from home for few years...

i wish i knew all this...