purpose of life...

last few days,

i went to gym wif acap,husna and maryam...

on d way back home,maryam bercerita dan berkate2...(well,she relly love to do so,haha...)

she asked me,"ape tujuan u hidup?"

terdiam...termangu...terkesima...

tergaru-garu kepalaku yg tak gatai walaupon org selalu ckp aku gatai...

d question is so simple...

ive faced d same question a lot of time before,

but i neither sincerely nor seriusly answering it..

when people ask me,ill tell em..

"we r servants of God..of course our purpose is to serve Him"

honestly,thats not d answer i wanna tell em,its just an answer in which i wanna em to hear...

why am i living??

whats d reason of my life??

whats d purpose i wake up in d morning,go to class,eat,walk,run,taking d metro,lunch,dinner and sleep???

its been a week..

i wondering d answer...

a real answer...

as i dun think i have 1...

i asked all of frens,radhi,nadzuan,hafiz,frod,bello and others,

"why are u living??'

as i tot, by referring to their answer,i could find mine...

however...

disappointed...

i still cant see it..

menurut hafiz aizat hami'at when we were having lunch kat mcD(macam bese,makan fillet o fish ngn kentang je...huu nk burger)

"kita hidup kerana 2perkara,ibadah n to be khalifah..."

yeap,i agree...

that is our REAL purpose of living...

i also wish that i could stick to dat purpose..

but to be honest,

tgk blk my past,all my routine hari2,

i was not really close to dat purpose...

so,for what was i living up until now??

that is what ive been thinking of...

bak kata maryam lagi...

"klu kite hidup kerana duit,kite akan tumbang bile duit kite abes...

kalu cinta,what if kite putus cinta??"

ade lagi beberapa tapi tak ingat...

but d point is,they are not a concrete reason of living..

in anytime,we could loss em...

is it my purpose:

duit??

its obvious not my reason of living...

i neva care ade duit ke tak,as for me,it is easy to gain...

love??

durgh,im tired of this...out of list...

family??

not really...i neva did anything for em..

future or to gain success bak kate nadzuan???

erm tidak....klas pon ponteng ari2...

so what???

............

guess ive been living with no reason..

i only makan,g klas,solat,tido,blaja,sume because i have to do that...

sume sbb kebetulan,

im a student,of cos i need to go to class...

im a muslim,so aku kene solat,puasa and all...

i have family,so aku kene call dorg...

...........

damn it...

i was living with no reason...

like a zombi,walking in d street without a soul...

waiting to rotting...

what and why am i live??

no reason...

semalam,when i was in pasar,beli ayam for open house on this wekend,

i told hafiz,"i feel like there is a missing piece in my life"

sbb everyday,aku sgt serabut...

tgh gelak2 ngn membe2,can feel some kind of sorrow deep in my heart...

n everytime,i keep thinking what is dat piece...

as i neva sure what it is...

now,

i guess d missing piece of my life is d answer to the question...

my purpose of life....

unless i find d answer,i wont be ok...

so do u know ur purpose of life??

everybody know d actual purpose is to beribadah...

but are u relly up to that purpose??