truth...its hurt but its a relief...

few years ago,d person i loved the most left me...
why???
she didn't tell me until last few days when we had a short conversation..
after knowing d truth,i was confused...
i didn't know how to react...
at first,i felt damn angry,mad and barely accept d reason...
but later, i felt some kind of relief...
like a tonne of loads was removed from my body..

guess what,
been a year,i was living in questions...
why she left and what did i do wrong...
i kept asking myself,did i say samting bad to her???
or maybe,i'd done samting dat had hurt her???
no matter how hard i pushed my brain to think,i could not find d answer...
as there was no answer...i didn't do anything...
moreover,i saw her for a quite many times after she went away..
everytime i saw her,i wished that she would turn around and explain...
looking at her and wishing her to talk was damn hurt..as it had neva come real...
sometimes,people advised me to forget her but i couldn't easily do so as i wanna know my fault..
and yeah,i really wanna do so...

but now,i know d truth...
its hurt,yeah its really hurt...
but at lis,i found d answer ive been waiting so long...
thanks...now i can move on easier...
forgetting all those memories and having no more weird feeling towards u....

i wish that everyone would choose to be outspoken,honest with ur feeling and keep no secret..
holding someone in question is very cruel..
it torture d person's feeling badly
believe me,truth is really hurt but pain will stands for only a moment but after 1 or 2 days,u will feel no more sadness...u may also forget d probs...
but if u hold someone in question,not telling d truth,u r torturing him mentally...
unless u reveal d truth,d person won't feel better,won't forget d probs and d best of it,he will suffering and living in pain for a long time until u tell him d truth...
believe my words,its hurt...really hurt...
i faced it!!