no matter how long i live,ill always keep my promise...

since last few days,ive been reminiscing all the moments i had last 3years..

kinda miss d moment i had when i was in ktt..
precisely, missing d moment i had with her..
oh gosh,why am i still dwelling in d past..
dwelling in a fantasy that will never comes true..

of all the persons ever came into my life,i admit,she is the perfect 1..

though it was just for a lil while,i cant refuse the fact that she is d 1 ive been hoping for long...

just a short period of time,

but she managed to put smiles on my face every moment i kept thinking bout her...

if up until now,ill wake up in the morning,regretting for still having chance to breath,

it was different at the moment,

every morning,i woke up early guessing what kind of surprise would she bring to me..

if nowadays,ill give up trying to study hard,

i never felt that way at the very moment,

cus she would be there advising me..

not to give up..to strive..and keep on trying until the very last moment i had...

and her smile,that was the reason why would i never give up...

honestly,i was doing so not for me but for her..

cus i didnt want to keep her down looking at my frustrated face..

i wish to face the moment she left,
so i could change it...
as at the moment,ive knew d reason she left..
deep in my gut, i believe that i could stop her..
too bad,the reason came to my grasp when it was too late..
when it was 2years after the moment she left...

i never blame her for leaving..

though it hurts me badly..

she did it for a reason...

although deep down,felt like it was kind of a selfish act to be taken..

but i accepted it,as i knew that reason would make her cry..

my whole life,i never wanted to see her cry...

thus,i put my pride n ego aside...

and took it as a cruel fate...

but still she left me an empty space,filled with sorrow...

though,i wouldnt ask for much...
i just want her to be on my side as a friend..
i still wish to see her smile,to hear her laughing,to listen to her words..
never more than so..
cus she has already found a man who able to make her happy...
and i happy for her..
though its killing me inside out...

sometimes,i felt like wanna take her off from him...
and i knew that i could do so if i really wanna do so..
but ive promise to myself that i will never do so...
cause her happiness is more important than mine...
as i said to her long time ago when we were having good time at the library..
"if theres a way to make u smile,even though it will make me cry blood..
ill still make it,cus ur smile will wipe out my bloody tears..."
and no matter how long i live,ill always keep my promise...