to move forward....

just now,i was talking to my old friend...
about how bad her life treated her...
about how cruel the people around her judged her..
till she confused either to hold onto her wish to change or not...
just like what had i face in my past...

we want to change badly...

we want to av a lovely life without problem...

we wish people to understand us...

kenape and mengape we want to change...

and we wish em to support us...

but turn out...

people judge us without considering what happen in our life...

people see us for what we show to em..

never what is there inside us...

dear mate..
life teaches me a lot of things..
life helps me to grow up...
life changes me into whom i am now...

if u really want to change..

the 1st obstacle to face is people around u..

just dont give a fuck bout em...

do it for urself and for what is the reason that u wanna change badly...

the 2nd one,

never look back on ur past..

never regret for what has happened...

just take ur past as a guidance... 

for u to perfect ur current and future life...

as for me..
i still fail to change...
ive pass the 1st obstacle...
but the 2nd one,it always come into my dream everynight i sleep...
and every moment i have,i waste em all by dreaming on going back to the past...
and re-correct em all..
but though i know deep in my gut,
no matter how bad i cry...
no matter how much i waste my time...
no matter how good my memory on my past...
ill never be able to go back time...
wish 1 day,ill find the guidance to overcome it...
and to move forward....