my pre-birthday party..

last night i was having my pre besday bash...
me or precisely my best buddy radhi cooked colourful nasik minyak with ayam masak merah for the guesses..
around 50 of my friends were invited..
n yeah i feel bad n guilty for not inviting others..
but hey,it wasnt like i dont appreciate ur presence as my friends..
but i couldnt afford to invite more people...
let say it was about financial problem..
but believe me,if i was able to do so,id invite every single person i know...

 a special thanks to my best buddy ever..

radhiyatun  mardhiah aka kak eton for glorifying my party...

without her,i wont be able to have that party...

she sacrificed her time though shes busy with exam n all...

it wasnt her birthday n dont even know some of the guesses...

but still she was willing to cook for the party...

from 9am in the morning till late  in the evening...

though i was also there to help her but still most of the works  were done by her...

now i realized a thing,god gave me the biggest gift  not just my my 22nd birthday...

but my whole life...

its a friend named radhi...

thans buddy... 

also a big thanks for my sweet marry jane...

Annatasia Elizabeth Banoon...

she was late for the birthday bash...

when i asked her why,mandi katanye...

but later kantoi tipuuu...

she was late sbb tengah bake cakes for me..not just 1 but 2...

thans dear...it meant everything for me..

to be honest,i was about to trickling my tears..

tp tahan,nk kasi nampak macho...

terharu kot...

that was the first(and second) self-baked cakes i ever had my whole life...

sayang la u..meow2...(hope ur bf will never read this post or its gonna be a big prob)

not forgotten,thans to those who attended my party...

diana n the geng,groupmates,batchmates,seniors n juniors...

u guys cheered up the party...

diana did say that shes upset sbb i wasnt sincere ajak die as ajak last minute...

but dear,im so sorry for the late invitation...

its not that u were in the standby list or last resort or watsoeve...

but i was confusing of whom to be invited...

i didnt want to hurt any feeling...

but at d same time,i was having financial prob to avoid it...

but believe me,it was never ajak tak ikhlas or what...

once u are invited,that means i want u to be here n im sincere...

tengkiu sangat2 to every1 sbb able to make it to my party...

some of my friend asked me,

why did u cook n have a party of ur own??

dont u think that ur friends are the 1 to do that for u??

or u r afraid if theres no-1 to celeb it for u....

to be honest,it never crossed my mind..

and it opened my eyes that samone would think so..

but the truth is..

my whole life,i attended lotsa birthday parties of my friends...

i never did anything for em,cook neither give a gift(sometimes i did)..

so for my own birthday,i dont want to burden my friends to celeb my big day..

plus,its my day,so i was thinking about doing them a favour..making em happy..

it was never to gain but to give..

n my previous status,its an honest word of mine..

their laughs,their smiling faces,their gossips..those things made my day...they cured my exhaustion...i dont need a cake neither wishes..i just wanna see em enjoy at my place..

after all,they are all the precious 1 to me..

they are my friends..

as for my 22nd birthday..

i pray to god for success in study..

melting my stone-heart to change n be a better person..

as for myself..

i wish to see life in a different way..

as this whole time,life is meant for nothing..

like a candle waiting to melt down...