ya Allah, Kau kuatkanlah hatiku

ya Allah, Kau kuatkanlah hatiku


the old me,didnt really care what people would think of him..
he did whatever he wanted..
he believed in himself..
and bold to go against those who hate him
he didnt have any secret cuz he wanted to be a sincere man..
he had good friends around to share whatever problems n joys he had..


however,things change when he started to listen to people's idea n perception..
he scared to do things cuz he didnt want to hurt nor to have people's bad impression..
he hurt his friend for being too straight-forward..
then, he became a new person..
he started to keep everything inside..
he refused to tell anybody about what happened in his life..
in his class,he used to be the 1 with biggest mouth..
but now,he keep quite all the time..


its not good..
cuz now he is so sensitive..
he has too many thing being kept inside..
he is like a timer bomb ready to burst..


lately, been few times he almost lost his temper..
when he heard bad things said to him on his back,
he was so eager to find em n kill em..
but alhamdulillah,he still able to sabar..


but im afraid,
if 1 day,he cant keep himself patient..
he might hurt people around him,especially those referred as his friend..
enough hurting their feeling,i dont wanna see him hurting them physically..


ya Allah,kuatkanlah diri dan imanku..
tabahkanlah hatiku untuk sabar dan istiqamah mencari redha-Mu..
cukuplah selama ni aku membelakangkanMu dan mencari redha manusia..
sungguh its not an easy thing to do..
to keep everything to myself n only letting only U to know..
cukuplah aku sakitkan hati org laen..
kuatkanlah aku..