i wonder..

im tired..
tired of trying to satisfy others..
tired of trying to be someone thats not me
maybe its good cuz that someone that im trying to be so badly is better..
but god knows how much it hurts when people starting to judge..
starting to bad mouth..
seeing me as if like im just trying to get attention..
not really wanted to sincerely change...

i dont know when did i starting to be someone like this..
thinking too much bout people's impression..
taking into account what people think..
giving a damn on whats gonna be said by em..

i miss the old me..
the one who didnt give a shit bout others..
living my life as how id like it to be..
doing my stuff without even thinking twice..
life was simple..
i want samting,i fight for it..
love someone, i court her..
hate someone, i just curse him..

this life,
its not as what id been dreaming of..
everyday is stressful..
everyone is important..
too many hearts to consider,i forgot to cheer mine..
for what im believe,i care for em..
but do they care bout me,
i doubt...

maybe im lonely..
maybe im too pathetic..
but im just a man..
ive a feeling,and it is a bitch..
too sensitive nowadays..
just whats gotten into me,
i wonder..