erti kehidupan

"ketika class, aku mengharapkan cuti...
bile cuti,aku mau ke class...
lumrah manusia,tak pernah bersyukur!!!"

cuti masih berbaki 3minggu,tp aku da rase kebosanan tahap dewa...rasekan seperti hidup tak bermakne...bgn pukol12...kelip2,g lunch with sis radhi,bello n nadz...then layan tenet...tup2,pukol7,p makan...then tenet lagik...kol10 maen pool...afta dat,tido...begitulah rutin harianku...

sometimes,im thinking by myself..."what is the purpose of life??"...and yet,found no answer...

aku berfikir panjang...jauh ke depan...afta grad,back to malaysia...2yers of housemanship,i cant imagine it...2yers of hectic life...as a doctor...on call..tak balik umah...lepak hospital...gosh,im very sure,once life as a doctor started,i wont be happy...its damn bloody hectic...happy just when get the salary...money...ouwh...

some people advise me to enjoy my student life...as its irreplaceable...tempoh kehidupan paling menyeronokkan...enjoyable..but still,i neva c d future of happiness of a student...herm...???

bukanlah aku menyesal to have medic as part of my life...im grateful..this is wat i was dreaming of when i was a kid...tp aku cume mahukan happiness...aku mahu hidup seperti dalam filem...even my faveret movie is about life of a campus student...but mine???its neva similar to those in movie...

God...give me strength...to keep alive...waiting for u to take me to life after the life...give me strength god..im begging u...