my life..why...what...

00.36 midnyte..
just after studied latin with radhi..huhu damn it!!why am i so stupid that i could not understand a thing in the class..
but later when i revised it with radhi,found that the lesson was not very tough..
bebal!!!
yeah,it suits me well..
however,it is not the topic i would like to say tonyte..
but bout myself..why im such a weirdo..difren from others...living in nonsense..no future!!!

huh...
some of my frens told and shared their probs with me..
prob with family...
soulmate...
housemate...
roomate...
misunderstanding...
study...
n lotsa more...

but why...
i feel like i neva face any of those probs???
like my life is always fulled with happiness and glory..
however,i always tension...for???i dont even know..
but i guess its becos hatred..of my own life..
feel like my life is not a really life..
blank...
no purpose...
zero..
....
....
....

i wish that i could spend some of my time by thinking...
of probs with my girl..
my family...
my frens..
housemate...
bestfren...
or maybe spending time thinking of why...
my gurlfren go out with other guy...
my fren use some dirty word in pointing me...
my teacher rotan my butt...
my family dun give a damn on me...
small matter..big or nonsense matter..any of em...

but too bad..i neva give em a damn...
for me...prob is not a prob...
my mind is blank...sometimes it done nothing for a long period...
useless...
meaningless...
i wish i could change...to be a human...

back in ktt...
i quarreled with nuyerq...bout the meaning of bestfriend..tarik muke...
for the 1st time in my life..i felt like having a true life...
not saying that i love to have an argument with her(superbly wish i wont have any)
but i felt like my life was not a zero..blank...noting..meaningless...
ive a fren..and i give her a damn...

i dont know what am i talking bout...
just tonyte...im kinda thinking what is life is all about...
what is the meaning of life..
why am i living...
as for me...it is nothing...
live like a shadow...
waiting for light to shine...
so that i would fade away...