aku mohon ampun...

1september09,2.19am...
urgh cant sleep..maybe sbb td da terlebey tido ptg kot...penat lol waiting at dekanat to settle d visa process...
can u imagine waiting from 9am until 5pm,and yet still cant settle it..dat means tomorrow,i'll have to go der again n god knows,bole settle ke tak esknye,tak taw la...for sure,im sick to go to dekanat..

titt tott,titt tott...
berangan,reminiscing all d times i had before...in mckk,ktt n then mma..
there's so much sins i had done...

we all know,God maha pengasih..and everyone who did any mistake or sin should ask for His forgiveness..i did...

but think again,after doing such sin n apologies, i cant help in redo d same sins n mistakes over n over again...well,im just a normal person who easily beaten by nafsu..then later,ill ask for his forgiveness...

however, im wondering whether He accept my apology or not...being honest,i doubt it...
even if someone come to me and ask for forgiveness n yet he still doing d same mistake, i won't be easily giving him 2nd chance..that is me...but what about Him???d holy God..d 1 who create us..

don't u think its like we r fooling n insulting Him, by asking for forgiveness n swear that we won't do d mistake again n yet,we break d word...this is God we r dealing with...

wish i could be more resolute in facing d nafsu.. deep in my heart, i wish i have d determination and able not to repeat my mistakes again...im ashamed to ask for His forgiveness again n again...
"ampunkan aku"