sudah tuakah aku??

1september2009,6.44pm...
smalam 31ogos09,adalah hari kemerdekaan kat mesia..
but here in moscow,it was also ulangtahun kewujudan nabilah zawahid aka bellon..maka ku ucapkan selamat ari jadi buat saudari bello...welcome to adult's life...20years old...

tenung2 balik,aku pon da 20tahun 4bulan dan beberape hari menghirup oksigen,asap rokok dan my beloved asap shisha kat dunia nih...sudah terlalu lame ku tinggalkan zaman persekolahan dan zaman kanak-kanakku...

20tahun...
sudah tuakah umur nih??
mengenangkan my medic life masih berbaki 5tahun, makanya aku tak perlu lagi menjejakkan kakiku ke moscow,membuang mase kat moslanka dan membazirkan duit bayar hostel yg mahal nak mampos tatkala umurku menjangkau 25 tahun...

then??
pada umur 26tahun, aku akan mula bekerja sebagai doctor(insyalah)...
seperti diketahui umum,hidup seorang doktor agak busy ngn on call n macam2 kehel lagik la..
sudah tentu ketika itu, masa,kurasakan berlari lari berdetik...

kemudiannya,
bukanlah aku merancang nk kahwen b4 my age reach 30...aku tak berani pon nk merancang this matter sbb mak aku da bg warning," jgn gatey2 nak kawen,blaja dulu biar abes..tu pon kalu taknak kene ketuk ngn batu lesung",kate mak aku ketika aku kat airport dulu...haish

namun,
secara umumnya,most of people getting married b4 they reach 30...so guess,i will also do d same...
nahhhhhh...it's just about 10 years to go...not so long...
having children...n then living my life as a father...
and as time goes by, i will getting old n then die...

pergh,
im getting old...
im an adult now...
n i cant see any delightful being a man...
waaa i miss my old time...wif fren...
playing games,wau bulan,mandi sungai,kene kejar lembu n hide n seek...
wish i could turn back time n get back to 10 years ago...
as i can already feel d splash of being a man...
tension,loneliness and seriousness...
n being honest,dun like it much