dear friend,

6hours before my ophtal final..
here i am depicting a new script of my life...
durgh malas la nk study da..
:P

since an hour ago,
ive been wandering my older posts, the comments and all the visitors..
i couldnt help myself from noticing that there was a friend of me
*nama dirahsiakan..
he used to stalk my post and leave bunch of comments on the posts..
reading those posts,it bring back all the memories while i was writing it..
deep inside, theres a feeling telling me that i was actually acknowledge him to be my close friend at that moment..
i dont know how to explain it..
but i just know that i was actually care about what he said to me..
though during the moment,i was acting as if i dont care n ignore him,
but to be honest,all of his words were carved deep inside me..

this friend of mine,
he used to lepak with me..
talking n laughing as if we were so close..
sometimes,the two of us went lepaking outside,shishaing and having dinner
as if he was my best buddy..
if im not mistaken,for the whole year,
he was the only man-friend of mine who used to go out with me like dat..
did i really admit him as a real friend??
i wonder...

but years passing by...
thousands of stuff happened during this while..
and only now i realized that we are no longer as close as we used to be..
there was even few weeks we didnt talk to each other though we were just there few meters apart..
i wonder what had happened between us..

there was time when i talked to him,
i asked him,why does he change a lot compare to those last few years..
and d answer was so simple,
"i care about those who give a damn bout me,n not those are not"
kcing,those words cut me deep..
maybe i was a bad friend..
insensitive, cruel n stupid enough..
lets just say i deserve losing a friend..
cuz theres some words saying,
"give and take"
since i have nothing to give and lot to take,
maybe he just getting bored with me..
i deserve this..

dear friend,
im sorry for putting u in adversity for thousand times..
for neglecting u...
i swear that i wont do so if ive the strength to avoid it..
but im too weak..
i am...