gosh,what was i thinking..

here i am again,regretting for being wadie..
last evening,i received a facebook msg from my groupmate,
telling me that ive to do some refarat on hypertension after skipping yesterday's class..
she also added that everyone was waiting for me before could start the class..
it was all due to my stupid and ponderous brain of mine,forgot to inform the teacher that i couldnt attend the class..
gosh,what was i thinking..


because of that,my group got to carry the burden,
they had to wait for nothing..
and later only the class was begun..
she didnt say directly but i can feel that she was frustrated with my action..
oh dear,im so sorry..
if i ever knew how much id pain others' life by my action,
i swear i rather kill myself than burdening them..


back few years ago,
1 of my friend scolded me for disturbing our class's lesson..
and till this very moment,it still humming deep in my ears..
"kalau ko tak suka n tanak blaja,its up to u..but dont let people suffers because of u..
ramai lagi org nk blaja..its not just about u"
from that moment,i kept it deep inside n i sweared that id never such thing to ever happen again..
but here i am,again..
running against my word..


im sorry guys for burdening u..
its true,i deserved to be hated..


its easy to plan..
to wish..
and to dream..
but its hard to achieve em..
such achievement wont go along with intention and mind..
but heart..
to be strong..
to have a spirit..
they are the 1 that will help us to gain our dream..
but too bad..
being me,ive a weak will..
and a brittle spirit..