i wonder what the hell is wrong with me..

shit,this feeling comes again..
feeling like dying..
lifeless..
been hours trying to define my life..
tried to sleep but minutes later, came down of the bed..
couldnt sleep..


sometimes,
i feel like im not a human..
perhaps a normal 1 like others..
wonder whats the differences between me and others..
but i could only come out with a blank thought..


been few days ive skipped my classes...
my groupmates and teacher,they are getting angry with my doing..
but i could only say sorry..
or keeping the guilty feeling inside..
cuz i havent talk to any of them..
this lifeless feeling of mine,
its the only reason for my doing..
i wasnt skipping the class out of laziness..
cuz being honest,i hate staying at home..
it just that i couldnt go to the class with my mind flying too far away from my soul..
oh god,i wonder what the hell is wrong with me..