been 3 days havent get a real n enough sleep..
my insomnia is getting worse..
for the 1st 2 nights were cool,cuz its on weekend..cuti
but last night,it was out of mind..
after came back home from deepavali celebration in dubrovka..
it was about 7pm,i was all tired and satiated..
tambah plak weather kat luar snowing,sejuk sampai tulang hitam...
best condition for a perfect sleep..
but later at 8pm,i woke up all of a sudden..
tried to close my eyes again but failed..
so bgn layan lagu,later at 1am,tried again..
3hours been lying on the bed,looking at the empty ceiling..
haeh,da la tak study lagi for therapy class..
ingat tido at 1 tu bole la bgn on 6am,study for 3hours..
last2,duk kelip2..
tengok2 alarm da bunyik..its 9am..
class at 930am..
mati lam kelas tak taw nk jawab ape for question..
cikgu da kecewa abes tgk result..
gosh..
i wonder just whats wrong with my brain..
at around 4am,i was all down n depressed..
deep down i felt like choking my neck or maybe smother my face with the pillow..
that way,perhaps id get a sleep..
but its a forever sleep of course..
with a confused heart and tired brain,
my emotion gained control of my mind..
out of nowhere,i felt sad lonely and pathetic..
i remembered by that time,i was sleeping upside down trying to smother my face on the pillow,
while my hand was already holding my neck tightly..
gosh,bet i was depressing too much that i was out my mind..
lucky me,ive someone who cares about me..
after sending her a msg,telling how did i feel,
though she didnt reply..obviously she was deep in her sleep..
but still,it relieved me..
then only i could gain my conscious..
to relax my mind n cool down..
but still,tak bole tido..
its hard to stay cool..
with a tired body..
overloading mind..
i need a real sleep..
or else,gile la pasni..
but last time i took it with normal dose-1pill,still didnt working..
so 2pills gonna fill my stomach tonight..
just pray that 2pills wont get me a forever sleep suda..
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