tunduk malu~

booosan...
naseb bek this is my world,so sukati aku nk conteng lagi.. :P


im a stalker..
dun be mad,im a medic student..so ive no life...so my life restricted to internet and facebook..so stalking is a good time-wasting for me..so aku stalk..
and just now,i stalked this 1 person's blog in which leads me to stalk another person's blog and lastly other another person's blog..
then i found this 1 dialogue in her blog which is meaningful..to me at least...


A: i hate life!!


B: who asked you to love life..just love Allah and your life will be beautiful..


*semoga tuan blog berkenaan meredhai kerja stalking aku nih..jgn marah...


why is it meaningful..to me??
cuz i used to be A..i used to say those words..and i bear it deep within my heart..
thus,my life is permanently ugly..
maybe sebab tu la i said it...
hermm...


kenape i hate my life??
because i was blinded by frustration..
for failing His trial..
and to think again..
because i was a stupid moron..
never satisfied with things i owned..
never be grateful for thousands of the best things ever happened to me..
all i ever knew..
mengeluh,mencaci,mengutuk and tak puas hati bile tak dapat what do i want..
padahal,kalau kira balik,
bala2 aku dapat tak sampai 50% from the total good things ever happened to me..
butakan???


i never tried to get to know my Lord..
never tried to listen and get close to Him..
erm,takde la never but almost never..
erk,tukar statement~~maybe im too hurry in giving up..
well thats me..


thus,my life never been beautiful..
guess ill never love my life unless im successfully love my Lord..
wish its not too late for that ~~


sesungguhnya Allah tidak mengubah keadaan sesuatu kaum sehingga mereka mengubah keadaan yang ada pada diri mereka sendiri..


tunduk malu~


*dah,tido time..bangun tido nnt nk mengomel kat sini lagi.. good nite Mr wadie